The one that cares too much.

My sister always told me that friends that I shouldn't really be true to the people I meet. She told me they won't always be around to care for me as much as I care. Explains why she doesn't have actual friends to begin with. But I didn't listen to her, and cared too much.

I'm not sure why, but I'm always the one friend that cares too much. I don't want to do it, but I always tend to care. I always have time for others. I always want to go out with my friends, I always get too close. I always put a priority for my friends. Unfortunately, they would never put a priority got me. I'm not a priority to some people.

I'm okay with that, really. I always think "Sheikha, you're not the center of the universe", and I do not want to think otherwise. I would hate it actually. But sadly, I kind of want to be the center of someone's universe. I want to have that feeling.

I have wonderful, caring friends, and I would never deny that. I do have a group of friends that will forever be mine, and I will always be theirs. But, I've also met some great people but they do not care as much. They do consider me a great friend, but they have friends that are a priority to them. They would always put them first... and I kind of want that, because I always put my friends first, and I always care too much.

I wish I could stop caring too much, but I can't.

And it just keeps hurting, even though it's silly.

(This has been a rant because I'm so done with everything.)